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A Zen Like Attitude about Food

My apologies to anyone reading this blog on a regular basis… I have been writing a lot of random crap lately, a little too much whining and too much personal stuff.. Maybe its the hormones, always making me think. I’ll try to do better. Well, after tonight. If you are sick of my rambling, just go ahead and skip this one!

I have been struggling lately, with following my restricted diet. I have no problem following the gluten free diet. However, I am not supposed to be eating dairy and soy, and I am NOT behaving in that category. I’ve been thinking, “I’m pregnant, I can eat what I want, when I want, if it makes me feel better at the time.” So, I’m eating so much dairy – frozen yogurt, cheese on everything, everything I am not supposed to do. I’m drinking chocolate soy milk cause we have it in the house and it looks good. It is ridiculous! It all tastes delicious at the time, and with my finicky appetite lately I’ve just been eating what I can. But later, when I start feeling even worse, I wonder if I’m feeling worse because of what I ate earlier.

I was reading Karina’s Kitchen awhile back, and she said something about trying to have a zen-like attitude about her food. That really stuck with me. I really want and need that. I need to not be upset at the foods I cannot eat. I really just need to be at peace with it. I need to not want those foods anymore. I need to separate from them. But I don’t know how to do it exactly. I’ve been doing it for 10 years with gluten. Why can’t I do it with the rest of the foods? In some ways I think it is harder, because I already had so many foods taken away from me when I found out about celiac disease. I feel like that is such a huge restriction, it’s not fair to have even more restrictions on top of that. Maybe it’s because I don’t get instantly sick from eating them, like I do when I eat gluten. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to stick out even more in social situations by telling people I am allergic to pretty much everything that exists. Who knows what it is, it’s probably a combo of a lot of things. One thing is for sure though, I need to come up with a way to deal with it. I am going to have a zen like attitude about it! (ha! we’ll see…)

2 Comments

  • Cynthia

    I think that will be a good attitude! I love your posts because a lot of us have days like you, and it is nice to know that everyone has those days and that it is okay! It is hard when you can not have certain foods, I think you end up wanting them more. I had IBS several years back and had to cut many yummy veggies, seeds, milk, cheese, etc…and I was soo upset and mad, like you. So my mom and I made a list of all the things that I did like and that were in my restrictions, which helped me when I was "feeling sorry and neglected from all foods". It does work 🙂

  • Anonymous

    This may help, something I heard just the other day….before you eat it think it all the way through…example: how does it feel now? how will it feel when I eat it? how will it feel after I eat it? Something that helps me is how will it affect my health? I think about being healthy for several reasons, I hate to take and spend money on medications (support drug companies? no way!)I have trust issues with the medical profession to solve my health problems, I want to feel good to enjoy my day to the fullest (who knows how many are left)I want to care for my family and job and have fun doing it. I like feeling good about my choices, it gives me strength in other areas of challenge. By the time you think about all this you will be to tired to eat anything. XXOO

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