It’s been a whirlwind of a week. Seriously. I have yelled. cheered. and cried. I sat in the pediatrician’s office, listening to words like “curable”, “recovery rate”, “leukemia”, “blood diseases”, not believing I was really there, wanting to just fast forward to the next day. I have hugged my kids more than ever before. I have been more thankful for my family, our health, and our parents living nearby, than I have ever been before. I have talked to the doctor after hours more often than I ever care to again. I watched my brave, brave little guy have his blood drawn, surrounded by the staff at VCMC who wanted to give “Diego’s” grandson special treatment. And I felt the most wonderful wave of relief upon hearing the results of those tests. NORMAL.
All because of a rash. A rash that has shown up three times in three weeks. A rash that when googled, is the only one that brings up the words “life threatening”, and “requires immediate treatment”. A rash that we still don’t have an answer for. And call me crazy, but I just don’t like hearing multiple doctors say “I’ve just never seen this before”. BUT, the dangerous causes have been ruled out. There is likely nothing really wrong. We will wait to hear what the specialists say next week.
After all of that, we are all just really ready for the weekend. I’ve had my dose of worry and stress for the week. For the year actually. I know that as a parent, there are going to be a lot of times when I’m going to worry. And I know that what we experienced this week is nothing even remotely compared to what parents of kids with life threatening diseases have to deal with on a daily basis. But as a mother, you never want to hear those words cross the doctors lips when they are talking about your child. I feel like I learned something this week. About myself. About being a mom. And about my kids. I also think that I appreciate and love my precious boys even more, if that is even possible.
Hope you all have a happy weekend. I might be scarce on here for awhile. Spending a little more time with my kiddos.