I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. Please excuse me. You see, I’ve had a bit of bloggers block. And along with that, a bit of an identity crisis. I also crushed my foot with my son’s high chair, could barely walk for a week. And we’ve been potty training. Needless to say, a lot has been going on.
We all have moments in our life that make us stop and think, reevaluate our priorities, attitudes, and the way we spend our time. I have had moment after moment like this lately. Some sprung out of heart wrenching situations such as seeing family members slowly slip away or a neighbor losing life as he knew it when confronted with a blood clot to the brain. Some out of my own guilt as I find myself becoming frustrated and angry at my own children as they test me, repeatedly through the day. Where is my patience? Where is my grace? My appreciation for the life I have?
I even asked my doctor, as he inspected my swollen, discolored right foot, “what can I do about my mood swings?”. He gave me a standardized depression quiz, scored it, and told me I was normal. I didn’t need any mood altering drugs. Well, okay. I guess that’s that. I’m normal. Where’s the help for us crazy normal people? Exercise, he said. And meditate. Well duh. If I had time to exercise and meditate I wouldn’t be in this funk!
Anyway, maybe by now you are starting to think I’ve really lost it. Maybe I have, just a little bit. So, I’m going to find “it”. Whatever “it” is. Really. Just you watch. If I have to get up at 5 am just to exercise and meditate, then that’s what I’ll do.